Bucket List

Started writing some of my bucket list late last year hehe but to be honest I've been writing things that I want to do since I became a single professional. Part of it is to celebrate my birthday with a cause. If you know me well, you'll say that it's too early to prepare coz it's like months pa before my birthday but I looooveeee being prepared!!! :)

Please please.. I need help. I need your suggestions. Where? How? And how much should be my budget? Thank youuu!!!!!

Finally!

Yes! Finally I will open up and share about my weight journey. Ever since I was a child I am more than my ideal weight. Growing up like that have ups and downs. My parents told me that I was cute but my brothers and sisters will say that I am chubby. More than that some relatives and classmates will tease me. Sometimes I get affected but I always shrugged it off. Until highschool, I am still more than my ideal weight though not up to the point of being obese. On my second year, I tried to go to a fitness gym then loose some pounds but eventually gave it up and almost back to my being chubby on my 4th year.

I am the one on the left ☺

I didn't mind if people will tease me but I will not lie that my feelings were hurt whenever they call me "taba" or "baboy" or "biik". In those moments, feeling ko nga positive na yung Chubby rather than Baboy. Haha. But those didn't motivate me to loose weight until I was in college. Depression and somehow insecurities arise when I enter college. This time mas matindi na the asaran and being compared were always happening. And someone told me na never na daw ako papayat those words struck me so hard! I tried loads of diet meaning starving myself. Haha. This time naging sakitin narin ako lalo and my lungs and heart got weak.

Here are some of my pictures,

Year 2010

Year 2010

Year 2011

Year 2011

Year 2012

My weight from these pictures range from 52-56kg.. After college I worked as an IT Recruiter (still connected with the same company ☺) first months were the worst month of my weight. It shoot up! I almost weighed 65kg.

December 2012

It didn't matter that much to me, I always say that I am secured and what's important is the beauty inside. Well, this is 100% true BUT my health suffered. Had problems with my joints and back. And of course this isn't good for my asthma. My turning point came in on September 2013, if I want to honor the Lord I should also honor Him in my health and also I am accountable what's happening in my body. I have been praying for complete healing but I am not disciplined enough. From there I started to change my lifestyle ☺ Changing my eating habits, getting more active. Since then I started loosing some pounds from 143.3 lbs now I weigh 129 lbs ☺

This isn't an easy thing.. I needed self discipline, motivation and support. Of course I stumble dapat nga 125lbs nalang ako kaso napabayaan ko rin but I made sure to get back on track. Praise God for people who reminded me why I am doing this in times that I wanted to give, people reminding me in times that I am forgetting what's my goal and people who appreciate it. There's still 29 lbs to loose. Yay!!! I won't take any shortcut. Hard work kung hard work ☺

February 13, 2014

Hello guys!!!!! ☺

Yeah, today is Valentine's Day but I had an early celebration yesternight. ☺

Someone texted me saying that he'll give me something and I was surprised to receive this one.

Royce Bitter Sweet Chocolates (www.e-royce.com)

I thought there will be no valentine for me this year (story will be on my another post) maybe it's obvious because of what I've been posting recently haha! Well, I was wrong! Never did I expect this one!

Happy Kiddo! He asked help from my officemates what flavor to choose. And they know me very well ☺

And he is my suplado sponsor! Hahaha #ArtistahinAngPeg

Anyway, more than chocolates, flowers, bears and a partner the best thing is that you can experience love without these. Love the endures forever. Love that does not intimidate you but cultivate you ☺ Let's celebrate love everyday. Happy hearts day ☺

Psalm 100:5

For the Lord is good and his love endures forever; his faithfulness continuous through all generations.

More than all the external love that I am receiving it is His love that will last forever. His love that will never grow weary and a love that doesn't intimidate. His love that I don't deserve nor I am worthy of receiving. This love made me complete, made me strong and made me face every situations or any circumstances. I will embrace this new season of my life for I know that God is in control, He is ahead of me.

Thank you to people who bear with me and will continue to bear with me. This will be a long journey but I am fully aware that this walk will not be alone. Many friends will stand up for me. My family will be my strength. More things to discover. Loads of new learning. Come on Lord! Let's get it on! ☺

A Minute Feels like Forever

Pain that's what I feel now.
Longing for you.
Thinking of you.
Waiting for you.

Now, I count the minutes
As if days passed
Moments were nothing
Without you by my side

Wondering whether you will be back
Whether you still remember all
Whether you will make your promises true
Whether you  still love me..

A nightmare

A nightmare in this daylight.
A nightmare while I'm awake.
A nightmare that I dunno when will end.

It feels like forever that I can't hold you
I can't feel you
I can't hear you

Waters welling into my eyes
The numbness in my body
Nothings functioning well

Should I still believe?
Do you really exist?
Is happy ending really exist?

Monday Night: GG Girls

God blessed me with relationships to keep for a lifetime. He made sure that I am not alone. Thank you Lord for such blessings ☺ I've met these girls in the office and we started having Monday night sharing since September last year. By that time, my supposedly resignation did not pushed through for some reasons. Honestly speaking I was really disappointed to myself and was totally down BUT the voice of God is clear and He gave me peace when I came to the point of giving up my own emotions. Days after that devastation (Ah ah! Kala mo naman devastating talaga. Sorry! Emotional lang po! :D) one of my office mates approached me and gave an idea of starting a this Monday group. We were only 5 by that time then eventually we invited more people. It was just sad because two girls had moved on to another work but I know for sure that they are in good hands as long as they are with God ☺

Now, I am so amazed of what God is doing to these girls ☺ I can't wait for more.. I am excited to see their prayers being answered. I am always ready to cry with them if needed. Will always laugh with them.

Hebrews 10:25

Not giving up meeting together, as some are in the habit of doing, but encouraging one another--and all the more as you see the Day approaching.

Discipleship 2014

Last February 1, 2014 all victory group leaders and possible leaders gathered for the #Discipleship2014 in different Victory Centers. Almost 10, 000 people gathered in different parts of the Philippines. It was a great privileged to be part of the said event. It was also encouraging to hear testimonies of people being led to God and people doing the work for the Lord. Such an amazing time.

And because I am part of Victory Makati, the event was held in RCBC Makati at 10:30AM but I was there at 9AM for the registration.

A lot of people also came in early to check the merchandise..

I get to know new people ☺ And I'm so blessed to meet students in School of World Missions.

Lord, are you going to send me to the nations? Yay!!! Whatever or wherever it is Lord, I am ready! ☺

So now.. Let the games beging ☺

The event started on getting to know people around and we never forget to have a group picture.

Pastor Steve Murell the founding Pastor of Victoty Philippines and the President of Every Nation shared encouraging words to us. He point out that we will continue to disciple people and raise up leaders. ☺

They also launched iLead: Identify, Instruct, Impart and Intern. This is how we can raise leaders ☺

The event was a bang! And we ended singing praise to the Lord and celebrate His goodness

And so the question is, Who's NEXT?

Yes! We are NEXT!

Matthew 28:19-20

19 Therefore go and make disciples of all nations, baptizing them in the name of the Father and of the Son and of the Holy Spirit, 20 and teaching them to obey everything I have commanded you. And surely I am with you always, to the very end of the age.”